*sigh*
I have been having a lot of those lately. I do not know whether to be happy about that fact or sad about that fact.
*breathe*
I have been told to do that a lot lately. But again, I wonder if I am breathing completely on my own or the willingness within me is breathing for me.
*strength*
I feel a lot of that lately. It comes out of nowhere. Waves actually, a sense of peace flows over me and I shiver at the slightest whisper of calmness.
*sentimental*
I feel that strongly lately. Not the kind that a grandma feels towards baking her grandchildren cookies- oh wait, maybe like that. Although I don't have kids, much less grands; and mm cookies sound good. Anywhoo!
I feel that sentimental is the best word to describe my feelings right now. Which lead me into this:
All of the words above have had an impact on me in some way, shape or form this past 10 weeks. As I approach my last week of classes..well more like my last week of finals, I can recall these same three words running through my head. Right now, I don't like thinking that I am 3 days away from my last formal presentation ever at school and I am 5 days away from graduation, from college, at age 20. HOLY SMOKING BONES! < whaa?!
Yeah! I don't even think I can begin to wrap my head around this sequence of events. Really. If you think hard back to you first day of kindergarten - for some of you I know that may be a lil bit extensive of a memory- however, feelings of nostalgia overwhelm the brain, same goes for elementary school. Middle school. ehh maybe more like "get me outta here" High school, feelings of weird bliss and "can't wait to get the heck out this place and be an adult" sank in. But now college. Where some people do not know where to look forward. It's kind of an emotional time. You know that you are now officially, official. Ready to do some work up in the working place. But for now, its more of a step forward, putting you in a positive direction type of thing.
And then there are all the questions from people.
"OMG so like, what are you gunna do now?"
"Are you excited?"
"Getting married?!"
"Are you going back to school?"
"What do you think your doing next!"
"Why are you graduating-your like 12!"
"So...this is it huh?"
Yes. This is it. I know what I want to do and I am willing to put it all there so I can do the best of my ability. I am excited, NOOOOOOO I am not getting married anytime soon. Besides, marriage entails a more-that-just-my-friend friend >boyfriend > fiance> husband..which I don't really have so no "dum-dum-da-dum".
Going back to school? Maybe. What am I doing next? refer to my list of starred words ^
Why am I graduating? Beecauuseeee! I A) went to elementary, middle and subsequentally high school, enrolled at Ai and now I am B) graduating.
Now while, I can joke about it in a post, I certainly can not joke in person. Cuz i get emotional. Knowing that I am leaving my family. My ID Peas :) I love them.
Well, if I don't post another post before graduation. Know that I am ok. I am just breathing :]
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